The fact that Eduardo can't really look Mark straight in the eye makes him wonder if his (former) best friend is getting it all wrong. There shouldn't be anything in what he just said that evokes feelings of shame, shouldn't be anything that the two of them don't share some level of sentiment over. Regardless of everything that's happened, neither of them is the wholly vindictive type, neither so bitter as to push the envelope over to 'malicious.' That's not like them.
Mark escapes that by managing to be practical, to view everything as a personal weakness when he tries to take revenge in any way, shape, or form. Even now in retrospect, doing little petty things with Sean... why? Why did he bother? It's not even that he can't see the reasons why he decided to cut down on Wardo's share of the company— mistake or not, he knows why he did it, he can still remember the way he felt while all of that went down, so that isn't the issue. But things like getting back at the people who've slighted Sean in the past? Seems like a waste of time, now. And throwing away of potential resources. (Not very strong ones, of course, but nonetheless, still more than nothing.)
Wardo, on the other hand, he escapes that type of edged behavior by just being who he is. A soft-hearted, kind young man, too vulnerable for his own good and too willing to look for the best parts in people. Especially with Mark. For that, Mark still finds himself trying to scramble after bits and pieces of logic or reason. As far as looking for the best in people goes, there are a whole lot more acquaintances between the two of them who might yield significant results. Dustin, for instance. But they're (were?) best friends. Sometimes, Mark knows that nothing should matter beyond that. Reason only extends so far.
And because they're not the betraying type (no matter what Eduardo may think of Mark now), because Mark knows that Eduardo is doing his best to not only be civil, but still to retain some semblance of a friend, Mark wonders if that subdued tone is a bad sign.
"You helped with the Winklevii," he says at last, unsure what he means by that statement. Unsure why it's being brought up at all. Feels right, though.
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Date: 2011-05-21 12:00 am (UTC)Mark escapes that by managing to be practical, to view everything as a personal weakness when he tries to take revenge in any way, shape, or form. Even now in retrospect, doing little petty things with Sean... why? Why did he bother? It's not even that he can't see the reasons why he decided to cut down on Wardo's share of the company— mistake or not, he knows why he did it, he can still remember the way he felt while all of that went down, so that isn't the issue. But things like getting back at the people who've slighted Sean in the past? Seems like a waste of time, now. And throwing away of potential resources. (Not very strong ones, of course, but nonetheless, still more than nothing.)
Wardo, on the other hand, he escapes that type of edged behavior by just being who he is. A soft-hearted, kind young man, too vulnerable for his own good and too willing to look for the best parts in people. Especially with Mark. For that, Mark still finds himself trying to scramble after bits and pieces of logic or reason. As far as looking for the best in people goes, there are a whole lot more acquaintances between the two of them who might yield significant results. Dustin, for instance. But they're (were?) best friends. Sometimes, Mark knows that nothing should matter beyond that. Reason only extends so far.
And because they're not the betraying type (no matter what Eduardo may think of Mark now), because Mark knows that Eduardo is doing his best to not only be civil, but still to retain some semblance of a friend, Mark wonders if that subdued tone is a bad sign.
"You helped with the Winklevii," he says at last, unsure what he means by that statement. Unsure why it's being brought up at all. Feels right, though.